Molly, would you mind CCing this to [my old name] from two years ago, trying so hard to look in the mirror and see anything other than Young Walter Matthau in a dress? Because it took me SO LONG to learn that it was okay to want what I wanted, to make peace with the fact that it was a little bit delusional to ask people to believe I wasn’t a “sir,” to brainwash myself into thinking I might end up being kind of strangely smokin’ hot.
But it worked. I swear on my life, I did the thing, and it WORKED. I just ... well, I thought it was a trans thing and not a trying-to-be-a-person-in-a-body thing, because I’d only ever heard a few people talking about it the way you do in this letter, and none of them were cis.
Dang. Guess I’m not as weird as I thought. Thank you. <3
Molly, would you mind CCing this to [my old name] from two years ago, trying so hard to look in the mirror and see anything other than Young Walter Matthau in a dress? Because it took me SO LONG to learn that it was okay to want what I wanted, to make peace with the fact that it was a little bit delusional to ask people to believe I wasn’t a “sir,” to brainwash myself into thinking I might end up being kind of strangely smokin’ hot.
But it worked. I swear on my life, I did the thing, and it WORKED. I just ... well, I thought it was a trans thing and not a trying-to-be-a-person-in-a-body thing, because I’d only ever heard a few people talking about it the way you do in this letter, and none of them were cis.
Dang. Guess I’m not as weird as I thought. Thank you. <3