But I’m not being cautious —right now I’m flinging myself out into a definitely ill-advised maelstrom that feels weirdly safe and right when I’m in it, and only dangerous when I talk to other people about it. Am I nuts and need an intervention or am I the only one who sees clearly that sometimes you can’t choose when these things happen. I’m digging with my fingers into the loam looking for red flags and coming up short but I still have to assume (for my own sanity) that I’m the only one digging. How can I be cautious and brave? I entered the maelstrom with uncharacteristic confidence and it is only my past idiocy that makes me afraid now.
But I’m not being cautious —right now I’m flinging myself out into a definitely ill-advised maelstrom that feels weirdly safe and right when I’m in it, and only dangerous when I talk to other people about it. Am I nuts and need an intervention or am I the only one who sees clearly that sometimes you can’t choose when these things happen. I’m digging with my fingers into the loam looking for red flags and coming up short but I still have to assume (for my own sanity) that I’m the only one digging. How can I be cautious and brave? I entered the maelstrom with uncharacteristic confidence and it is only my past idiocy that makes me afraid now.