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Beautiful Heather! This unleashed tears that had been building up but yet to spill over.

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"Because the world is full of children who need to feel safe."

This!!!

This really gets at something I have been trying to articulate to myself.

I read recently that they have discovered that placebo very often works even when the person knows they are taking a placebo. And that placebo consistently outperforms many medications. I am fascinated by the positive and negative implications of this.

So many of us want to be lied to, to continue to lie to ourselves. We prefer a sense of security even when we know it is false. Doing things the way we have always done them feels safer. Aligning with 'power' feels safer. I have been guilty of this. Oh boy, have I ever! I'm working on it. It's hard.

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This should be preached as a sermon in every church across the country

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HOLY SHIT! The new anthem, powerful beasts that we are!!!

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*looks up 'how to turn death drive into life strive' in online search engine*

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Heather, reading this post felt like you were speaking right to that part of me that’s both exhausted and still stubbornly alive. Your words strip away any illusion of elegance in perseverance; you call it what it is—messy, awkward, sometimes painfully clumsy, but necessary. You’ve captured that raw, relentless truth of pushing forward when everything wants you to stop, rest, or disappear.

Thank you.

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« Feel yourself break into pieces but keep moving. Feel your heart collapse but keep going.»

at the aftermath of a somewhat breakup, where the tears-vast rivers still haven’t been shed, i hug my lonely heart and I say to her after reading this, just keep going… thank you for sharing this with the world. Makes me feel a little bit less alone in it. 💗

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Thank you for that. Such a hard week and to open up this struggle on a Sunday when I am both at rest and exhausted with the fight that is about to begin all over again on a Monday. Thank you. Gave me strength to disguise “death drive into humble will to survive”

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"hope makes you a flight risk"

well said

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Yes…gorgeous…and I hadn’t cried yet either….we go on.

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❤️

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Now that's what I call an advice column. Thank You!

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I can't help but to feel hopeful by the end of your narration. Oddly beautiful!

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This is what my 20 something me needed to hear so many years ago. You nailed it, every single b it of it! Thank you!!

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